FORGIVE ME--by guest poet Tonisha N.

Locked windows

Closed doors

Painful thorns poking at my flesh

Who knew that a rose could thrive in the cold

Night skies

Reminiscing on the good times

Life laughs

Life dies

Life has so many unknown whys

Cries

Tears filling up my soul

But failing to fall out of my eyes

I can’t cry

It’s as if the devil himself is begging me to take this joyride

Through gratification

And wicked sins

To bring out the pain that I feel within

No one told me that it would easy

But they did say it would be worth it

Now I’m trying to figure out why the fuck this shit ain’t perfect

And where did I go wrong because shit hasn’t been right in long

Now I’m sitting here pretending

Talking others out of suicide while I’m the one needing the intervention

Ain’t that shit wicked

You’re saving them while your foot is on the ledge

With your heart beating fast

And your soul in cast

You’re battling demons that no one can seem to grasp

Lurking in the shadows

For you to give your last

And snatch you away fast

So I wait

And I listen

Hoping they’ll give me the answers to what it is that I’m feeling

Maybe I’m dreaming

But I see no reason in living

And maybe ending it all would make shit much simpler

Just forgive me when my eyes close and my light fades away

Your darkness will turn to day

So forgive me

But I couldn’t stay. . .